Chronic Unpredictability

Even I am amazed at the extent to which a human being can be pushed. I see it all around me: the frayed nerves, the short tempers, the salty dispositions, and the "checked out" facial expressions.

We aren't supposed to be this way. It is instilled in us to see the mission through, and give 100%, until the very last day - until we are properly relieved.

But human beings can only be pushed so far before we break. Tonight, in the office, we were just hanging on, waiting to start our "weekend." If you are just reading my blog for the first time, the weekend, here in Baghdad, starts when we leave work on Saturday night and lasts until we show up for work on Sunday around lunchtime. It's a glorious few hours on Sunday used for recharging.

For the past few weeks, I've been sleeping straight through it but feel like a million bucks when I wake up. So worth it!

And HusBand... poor guy. He's safe and doing well, but very bored. And while, yes, it's bad - all the injustices done to the Egyptian people at the hands of a corrupt government. The rampant poverty, misuse of resources, and total neglect of the needs of so many people. The people should be demanding change in their government as all people should have that right.

But why NOW???? I won't say how close we are to going back to the US of A, but HusBand and I sacrificed all year so that we could be together and have FUN when we got back. We stressed, worried, cried, and commiserated over our very uncertain futures. And then we got great news that our lives could and would line up together pretty well. And THEN we made fantastic vacation plans. These were some really great plans, dear reader, that involved some adventurous world travel based out of Egypt.

I think these plans are very close to going right out the window. So, being this close to reuniting with my beloved, we are AGAIN forced to reevaluate and come up with another plan and see how much time together money we will lose in the process. How many times will we have to go through this?

It's a well known fact (at least to me) that I'm pretty tired of not being in control of anything in my life.  Could the world please stabilize for the next 2 weeks?? Is that too much to ask?